It has been a few months since I last documented one of my ‘typical’ days as a PhD student, the last one was in October to be exact. So here is my first ‘day in the life’ post of 2019! 7.54am– I am up and ready to leave. Just making a salad roll for lunch. 8.42am- I have been at work […]
I needed a place to reflect and enjoy my own company for a few days, and I quickly decided on Lorne (one of my favourite places!). I decided to stay in the Cumberland hotel, which had one of the best views (I know I say it a lot, and this one was still better). However, the balcony from the Cumberland […]
I wasn’t sure if I would write a blog post about this. But sitting here in Lorne (one of my favourite places), looking out onto the ocean, and remembering all of the wonderful things that is Jake, it felt right to write. I choose to take a few days away by myself for the ‘year since’. Self-reflection for me is so important, and in truth I couldn’t face being around people this weekend. It is so interesting because you never think tragedy will happy to you, and you can never predict how you will deal with it when it does. For me this last year has been a learning curve I never expected or wanted. I won’t dwell too much on the past year, apart from noting that perhaps one of the oddest feelings is not being able to remember the end of August through to January last year (apart from a few small memories). I went in to autopilot and my brain cushioned me from the grief by not letting me remember, which I am thankful for. However, the fact that I can’t remember four months of my life has given me even more inspiration to live in the present. I want to remember the big things, the tiny things, and everything in between. I also honestly wouldn’t be the person I am today if it wasn’t for the people around me. “it takes a community to get here” […]
If you are unsure what this post is about- read here. *** Everyone asks me how I am. People close to me ask me “how are you, really?”. Which is a great question as they see through my generic “I’m okay” response. The truth is, I am both okay and not okay at the same time. I am okay in the sense that I am holding it together. However, I am also not okay as I am sad, angry, confused, and exhausted. I am genuinely so exhausted. Carrying around grief, literally feels like the weight of the world is on my shoulders (which is a saying I always thought was so odd), it makes everyday tasks so much more tiring than normal. Whenever, I am watching a TV show and a character suffers a loss (particularly the death of a loved one), I always just want to fast forward to the part where they are okay again. I hate watching these fictional characters suffer. Now it is me suffering. And now I realise that it is going to take a really long time to “be okay” (I can’t just skip forward to season four) and that I don’t think I will ever “be okay”…well not in the same way that I used to be. Although, I said I’m sad, and angry, and confused, above all of those feelings I just miss Jake. I miss spending time doing nothing with him, […]
It has been a few months since I documented one of my PhD days, so here goes (if you haven’t seen the August one you can do so here). 9:50am: I forgot to take an earlier picture (I am out of practice from missing some months), but I just arrived at my house and am watering all my plant babies. I […]
Day in the life of Rebecca (PhD student): Hi! I’m Rebecca – a 4th year PhD student at the University of Reading in England. I’m a meteorologist by background, having previously studied for an undergraduate Masters (MMet) in Meteorology, at the University of Reading and with a year at the University of Oklahoma in the US. Nowadays, I’m researching flood […]
Day in the life of Becky (Masters student): Hi friends! I’m Becky from the Middle Of Nowhere, Canada (formerly known as Lethbridge, Alberta until I called it “the Middle Of Nowhere” just then). I’d like to give you a concise summary of my past and future career goals here, but tbh I’m just winging it and hoping for the best […]
